Expensive Loved Types,

I’ve been wondering about how to update all of you on my chemotherapy treatment plans this summertime, which just so come about to have fallen right smack dab in the center of turning out to be a Beth Millner Jewellery ambassador. For a although I was not sure if it was the worst timing or the greatest timing when I was chosen, but then I understood that this is accurately how lifestyle goes: you don’t get to choose the timing of your life’s worries or your possibilities. You only have regulate on how you opt for to assume about them, and how or if you choose to act upon them. For instance, I could say that breast cancer is the worst issue or the greatest factor which is took place to me, simply because both equally are accurate. Surgery and chemo are not precisely matters that people rush to indicator up for, but at the identical time, which is just what it took to uncover how a lot of angels I have in my corner and how sort and generous and thoughtful the world can be. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen battling breast cancer

 

Now that I’m approaching 7 days 8 of the 12-7 days Chemo Marathon that I hardly ever wanted to indicator up for, sponsored by the club I’d by no means desired to sign up for (breast cancer), I have recognized a private fact: marathons suck. I imply, I’m sure there’s at the very least one particular particular person out there who loves running so much that they search ahead to beating the crap out of their bodies for miles and miles, and that it’s possible there is some strange runner’s euphoria I’ve yet to faucet into, but dang! Not gonna lie, it was easier at the commencing when you’re at the commencing line and there are a gazillion of your bystander peeps observing you and cheering you on. And I’m certain there will be just as quite a few there waiting for me to cross the complete line. But when you’re on mile 8 of 12, and there aren’t as lots of persons on the sidelines viewing you any more, your working gets really unpleasant, and so do your thoughts. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen losing hear from chemo treatment

 

And talking of that, there’s almost nothing that’ll stir up your notions of magnificence and ugliness fairly like a wonderful round of balding chemo. But then once more, that is the entire stage of this story, a reminder that we have whole manage of how we pick to see a thing, and we can either seize an possibility or let it pass us by. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen losing hair from chemo treatment

I do not know about you, but due to the fact I didn’t prepare on getting all my hair slide out several instances in my daily life, I figured now was the opportunity to switch a number of lemons into lemonade. 

It was a number of weeks ago when I was ready to start off pulling all my hair out in clumps, very a lot correct on agenda, all around “mile 4” in the marathon. I knew that as really hard as it was, I’d need to make peace with expressing goodbye to my hair, as “unpretty” as that may well make me experience, and I’d had a fantastic idea that would distract me more than enough to get by at least the following few miles. 

I was likely to snicker my way by way of the total detail, and I was likely to make confident that somebody else benefited from it, as well. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen losing hair from chemo treatments

And which is just what I did. I went out on social media and explained to all my friends that for just about every $20 they donated, that they’d get their names place in a hat for a major drawing, and that the particular person whose identify was drawn would get the honor of choosing the design and style that my Mumma would draw on the back again of my bald head, the moment I’d shaved off all my hair. The proceeds had been split similarly in between the Delta County Most cancers Alliance and Wildlife Endless of Delta County. Collectively my angels raised just about $2,500 to break up among two of my preferred charities!

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen with a new short haircut

It took me 3 haircuts this 12 months to get to my bald canvas. Individuals of you who understood me six months in the past understood that I experienced very long hair down to my lessen back, so my hair was a massive portion of my identity. I donated the to start with foot of it to Kids With Hair Loss, so that somebody else would be capable to dress in a wig that I was in a position to mature for them myself. I’d finished this when in advance of and experienced made the decision that after my hair reaches a particular size, I’m going to retain accomplishing this till I’m no longer all around to maintain growing it. Think of all the wigs that’ll be out in the earth after so many yrs! Would make me smile. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen having fun with her new hair!

My 2nd haircut bash was heading from my shortened bob haircut duration to tomboy duration, which was incredibly more challenging than likely pool-cue bald. Perhaps it reminded me of the last time I’d experienced my hair this shorter in 2nd quality, a minor kid mistook me for a boy, and my psyche by no means recovered. Possibly it’s since I just don’t assume brief, quick hair is all that flattering on me. Regardless of what the explanation, I had to electrical power-smile my way as a result of that overall 7 days before the genuine shave took place, and that gave me a clean slate in extra methods than a person. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen with a freshly shaved head

Nothing suggests “I enjoy you” quite like your good hairdresser close friend agreeing to transform you into a bowling ball (I’ve been told I have a properly round head) and your 75-12 months-aged mother agreeing to draw a little something on the back again of your head for charity. And which is particularly what they did. The gal whose name had been drawn needed a hummingbird and a pink breast most cancers ribbon in the style, and thinking of that the canvas was moveable skin lined in a light-weight stubble, I think my mother actually kicked ass on the concluded product or service! 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen used her bald head from chemo treatments as a canvas for breast cancer awareness art

It’s been two months running around my corner of the entire world with no hair, and the portion I have not stated right up until now, since I’ve been too occupied pretending that getting bald is a total hoot and a hilarious experience, is that oh boy, there are times when I truly feel sooooooo hideous. I have place a handful of pictures of my new type out on social media, and many individuals have commented on how wonderful I seem. But I do not definitely believe them. I’m convinced that they are stating it just to make me really feel greater, because, you know, Mile 8. The portion where I’m “ugly running” and people today really do not have time to sit there on the sidelines and cheer me on each individual next of the working day mainly because they have their have life to are living. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen's mom painting her head

I knew with no a question that I’d have unappealing days all over this marathon. The matter is, even when you know there will be struggles uphill, occasionally you don’t see them coming right until you’re suitable smack dab in the middle of one particular. And all you can do is acknowledge the hill, suck it up, buttercup, and preserve plodding since faster or later the floor will be amount yet again. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen during chemo treatment

The elegance I have been ready to just take with me on this marathon considering the fact that the starting is my Beth Millner pieces. Irrespective of whether I’ve had very long hair or small hair or no hair, they’ve been with me for the whole marathon, like a talisman defending me from emotion ugly or from emotion like a complete failure. They remind me of so several existence classes I want to study this time all over. When I head into every chemo mile marker, I’ve received a various get the job done of art accompanying me. Just one week it’s my bumblebee pedant, reminding me to keep active and to preserve relocating. The following it could possibly be my heart pendant, reminding me of all the really like and assist I’m taking with me into each and every of these sessions. Another is my butterfly assortment, representing the alterations that I’m heading by means of. Perhaps I’m experience unattractive at this phase of my journey mainly because that is how it’s meant to go, like how the caterpillar may well feel ahead of it cocoons. But seem at how I’ll be remodeled at the end of this marathon!

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen enjoying life while undergoing cancer treatment

I’m wanting ahead to sharing with you my finish line, my transformation, and my tale as it continues to unfold. I’ve normally reported that my function is to direct these an unusual and interesting daily life so that I’ll have actually fantastic stories to tell when I’m 100 yrs old in the nursing dwelling, and boy, is this 12 months ever generating! Thank you, my angels and cheerleaders, for putting yourselves along my marathon route and rooting for me. 

Beth Millner Jewelry Ambassador Kristen enjoying life while undergoing cancer treatment

Coincidentally, upcoming 7 days you could basically cheer me on, if you are in the Escanaba-Gladstone area. My spouse Todd and godson Noah and I are all “competing” in the MISH mini-triathlon on August 27. Noah will be carrying out the 3-mile kayak part, I will be biking 13.5 miles, and Todd will be running the 5k finale. I’m not absolutely sure I’ll be breaking any documents for pace on Saturday, but you can most assuredly depend on me not becoming a quitter. 

Let’s go, Team G! 

Be happy, be nicely.

Kris G